Indulge me...
I try very hard not to be a complainer. Really I do. But can I just whine a minute here? It's hard being the brave little toaster all the time.
I've been sewing for 4-5 hours a day during the little ones nap time. Then again when they go to bed. In addition I'm trying to spend at least an hour on answering email and working on Journal Modiste. Oh and the insane CPSIA law that was passed that threatens to shut down all my businesses in one fell swoop, that is taking some time to work through as well.
All of this while doing my normal "chores." You know the really fun ones like: 3-4 loads of laundry a day, budgeting/paying bills, cleaning and directing the kids to clean (ie. Do you call this clean? What about that pile of junk in the corner?), making grocery lists, planning & preparing meals, homeschooling, cuddling various kids, thinking of new ways to make money, trying not to worry about Brian not finding a job, breaking up fights, exercising..... You get it.
Don't get me wrong, I am thankful I have the ability to bring in money while Brian is looking for work. Unemployment just pays our mortgage and heat. Everything else comes from what I can earn. God has been blessing me with orders and is keeping all bills paid and food on our table.
But I'm just a little weary. I'm not a coffee person but I've been relying on it to keep me hopping all day. I'm having trouble turning my mind off a night to sleep and all of my sleeping pills are gone. Whine, whine, whine. Okay done.
This verse is running through my head and it is a comfort to me.
James 1:1-8.
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6 But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
So I'm going to keep on keeping on and throw the focus off myself and on to serving my family and God. Wow! Who knew blogging could be such good therapy?
I've been sewing for 4-5 hours a day during the little ones nap time. Then again when they go to bed. In addition I'm trying to spend at least an hour on answering email and working on Journal Modiste. Oh and the insane CPSIA law that was passed that threatens to shut down all my businesses in one fell swoop, that is taking some time to work through as well.
All of this while doing my normal "chores." You know the really fun ones like: 3-4 loads of laundry a day, budgeting/paying bills, cleaning and directing the kids to clean (ie. Do you call this clean? What about that pile of junk in the corner?), making grocery lists, planning & preparing meals, homeschooling, cuddling various kids, thinking of new ways to make money, trying not to worry about Brian not finding a job, breaking up fights, exercising..... You get it.
Don't get me wrong, I am thankful I have the ability to bring in money while Brian is looking for work. Unemployment just pays our mortgage and heat. Everything else comes from what I can earn. God has been blessing me with orders and is keeping all bills paid and food on our table.
But I'm just a little weary. I'm not a coffee person but I've been relying on it to keep me hopping all day. I'm having trouble turning my mind off a night to sleep and all of my sleeping pills are gone. Whine, whine, whine. Okay done.
This verse is running through my head and it is a comfort to me.
James 1:1-8.
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6 But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
So I'm going to keep on keeping on and throw the focus off myself and on to serving my family and God. Wow! Who knew blogging could be such good therapy?
Labels: musings
posted by amy at 1:28 PM
6 Comments:
Oh, I know how you feel. I hope things ease up for you a bit!
Here's hoping that the stupid CPSIA law gets fixed before too much longer. Don't get me started on that, and you probably know way more than I do about it. Yes, rely on God - If he brings you to it, he'll see you through it. (((HUGS)))
God loves you Amy! keep up the fight! :-)
God bless those that just keep on keeping on.
I hear ya. Sometimes it's just nice to type it out and be done with it and move on, eh? Will keep you guys in my prayers!!
love this honest post.
we were reminded in our sunday school class last week to be grateful for the challenges & trials that we're going through...it means God is chasing us, refining us. He is chasing ME...I am one of His!
thankfully...how would we do it without Him?!
i definitely needed that reminder.
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